A desperate search for peace
Its been a month, in fact a good couple of weeks more than that, since I last posted. And the period between has been tiring. Just generally. One of those elongated stretches when you get the feeling that the rub of the green has gone against you so consistently that even the law of averages should be ashamed of itself.
It did not, of course, help that the mid-semester examinations just underlined the fact. They started off pretty decently, and then things started to go haywire in my signature style. Unforced error after unforced error, a new ill that has crept into my system since the end of my first year. A lot of things coincided with the end of the first year---in fact, to be precise, I would put the end of my golden period(ok, thats a bit of an overstatement) at around November, 2004. Keep wondering since then if its just accident. Have almost come to the conclusion that it is not. Its just destiny, and I feel anybody's destiny is woven intricately around the lives of his/her associates. And as people around you change, so does your destiny.
Desperately seeking some serendipity.
My frust life:
Exams-one topic that does not need elaborating.
Exams got over on Wednesday. Everybody has gone home for a couple of days at least, everybody who lives in Cal, that is. I have not coz my lovely dep chose to put in a couple of lab assignments to keep us busy while the mid sems were on, and those have to go by Sunday and Monday respectively.
Ants infest my room. I do my best to keep it free of food and all and still they find god-knows-what to be attracted to. They were grazing my monitor today morning. And to add insult to injury, went to the WTGW captain's room yesterday night for a short practice. The guy has chocolate wrappers, biscuit packets, Real juice tetrapacks strewn across the room. No sign of ants.
The draw in the tournament has gone against me. And it could have been set right but the key people have chosen to go partying out-of-station.
Sources of comfort a little in short supply, and the past keeps coming back to haunt my present.
Saw one of those blogthing links on herenow's blog, which said I am 70% boyish and 30% girlish. Worried.
Spent over 600 bucks on chocolates in the last 6 weeks.
Just realized things which should bother me don't and those which shouldn't do.
Does my life get better by the day or what??
As an alternative to my desperate search for serendipity, I have decided that anyone who can get me a time machine will be amply rewarded.
It did not, of course, help that the mid-semester examinations just underlined the fact. They started off pretty decently, and then things started to go haywire in my signature style. Unforced error after unforced error, a new ill that has crept into my system since the end of my first year. A lot of things coincided with the end of the first year---in fact, to be precise, I would put the end of my golden period(ok, thats a bit of an overstatement) at around November, 2004. Keep wondering since then if its just accident. Have almost come to the conclusion that it is not. Its just destiny, and I feel anybody's destiny is woven intricately around the lives of his/her associates. And as people around you change, so does your destiny.
Desperately seeking some serendipity.
My frust life:
Exams-one topic that does not need elaborating.
Exams got over on Wednesday. Everybody has gone home for a couple of days at least, everybody who lives in Cal, that is. I have not coz my lovely dep chose to put in a couple of lab assignments to keep us busy while the mid sems were on, and those have to go by Sunday and Monday respectively.
Ants infest my room. I do my best to keep it free of food and all and still they find god-knows-what to be attracted to. They were grazing my monitor today morning. And to add insult to injury, went to the WTGW captain's room yesterday night for a short practice. The guy has chocolate wrappers, biscuit packets, Real juice tetrapacks strewn across the room. No sign of ants.
The draw in the tournament has gone against me. And it could have been set right but the key people have chosen to go partying out-of-station.
Sources of comfort a little in short supply, and the past keeps coming back to haunt my present.
Saw one of those blogthing links on herenow's blog, which said I am 70% boyish and 30% girlish. Worried.
Spent over 600 bucks on chocolates in the last 6 weeks.
Just realized things which should bother me don't and those which shouldn't do.
Does my life get better by the day or what??
As an alternative to my desperate search for serendipity, I have decided that anyone who can get me a time machine will be amply rewarded.
posted by Lancelot @ 2:13 PM
10 Comments:
At 3:28 AM,
Dipanjan Das said…
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At 3:28 AM,
Dipanjan Das said…
many things to tell you. firstly if you get a time machine, which way would you like to go? past or future? i guess, future. but dude, you are still in an inllusion. i am fooked since the last 2 weeks. assignments, assignments and assignments. i advise everybody in the world not to study computer science. the days of clearing IIT JEE and getting into CS seemed to be golden times. but we indians think that CS is great, but it gives you no life. man, i am frust. and that's why probably i totally realize what you are going through. take care.
At 6:10 PM,
KT said…
oh..I wish the same boy..
At 3:04 PM,
Dreamcatcher said…
Well, at least you got back to blogging. Take heart in the fact that exams are over..its so cliched to say that things shall get better and bad times must pass..take care.
At 9:27 PM,
Acroyali said…
and boss.... get over it!!! they're ANTS for gods sake! not the dinosaur age coming alive!
At 10:38 PM,
Acroyali said…
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At 9:37 AM,
Rashmi Patel said…
oye chill maar le thoda..break le le...may be a light reading like "Five point Someone" ( comic crap about IIT student days) wd help..
At 8:17 PM,
Rimi said…
acroyali--i suppose you'd say the same thing to me abt cockroaches? no, i'm with lance on this one. tiny things are a nuisance.
lance--you poor boy *mother hen ruffles her feathers* but nothing excuses 600 on choclates!!! thank your stars you're built thin, you unhelathy eater person!
as for everything else, well, dude, life.
At 4:37 PM,
jaded said…
Exams: i agree, they are really not welcome
ants: you prolly smell yummy yourself!!look at it this way, somebody is so passionatey in love with you that they want to pain you(some sort of i-own-you psychology)
tournament:key people can never be found
boyish-girlish: that honey is cute(oops, too girly is it?)
chocolate:DUDE are you nuts..or are you anorexic(girlish sign, be worried)
bothering things:
thats what things do- they bother you..
all in all i have summed up your problems becoz i want to prove that your problems do not matter in front of my problems.......hogging sympathy
At 1:11 AM,
jaded said…
btw lance, i dont seem to be seeing you even near my blog and i leave TWO comments....& no replies even????how rude...
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