Deja vu-The first anniversary

Things change. Quickly. This is the time of year when I am at my most vulnerable. i have often wondered about this thing called luck or coincidence and stuff like that, and how if something was working for you you should never change that. I have often wondered through this last year when not much has gone my way, whether something that changed around Illumination last year might be responsible for it. There is, of course, no concrete answer to the question.

But it remains a fact that the last year has seen a complete metamorphosis in me. Everything changed. From grades to beliefs. From strong convictions to complete revamps in my opinions. From a sheltered life to the real world. From idyllic views to a loss of innocence of sorts.

It kind of came over me like a wave while I was thinking about some stuff. That all those Howard Roark-ian ideologies that we had dreamt of through Ayn Rand infatuated school days, through animated discussions over cha-chanachur on rainy evenings at rup's place, of how we would make a "difference", of what we would do to immortalize our beloveds(who at the moment happened to be recent crushes ;D), of the most amazing lives spent with them, face aglow as we spoke about them, about them being the inspiration behind all that we would achieve, of those huge pictures that we would hang at home and office recording some of those golden moments for posterity.

Somewhere over the last year, I saw the world for what it was. Think I did anyway. Things happened which brought those fantasies come crashing down, like one of the waves reducing the castle to what it really was-a lot of (useless) sand. Lost a lot of faith in those lofty ideals, in the universe, which as Paulo Coelho likes to say is supposed to conspire to get you something that you really want. A year of epiphany, if you might call it that.

Two things happened over the last few days that seemed to sort of reaffirm faith, so to say:

A friend of mine posted this(and do take a look) on his blog, something that seems to hark back to those flights of fantasies that I had once shared with a school friend of mine, and what we had dreamt of doing was on these lines. Very happy about this guy and the person he is writing about, and that things seem to be working out so brilliantly for them.

Second, Babelfish posted this on her blog about the recent IIPM controversy, and do read the links she has put on her blog. Its great to see people like Gaurav Sabnis stand up for what they think is right. And its more so simply because I have come to realize just how difficult it is to do so at far smaller levels, leave alone resign a cushy position at IBM.

Thanx, S&M and Gaurav Sabnis(shmall part to babelfish for providing comprehensive links about the matter!!!!)

PS: If this post sounds a little sento, then you are mishtaken!! Not that way, at all, I am not going soft or anything. Just a statement of facts, if you will, which mean a little something to me ;D